It has been some time. At times i would open the editor feeling the need, the need for writing something and instead of writing i just sit there staring blankly, just like the state of my mind, completely blank. Nothing is happening inside my brain. I look around, read papers, books, magazines, blogs listen to FM, watch TV but nothing. It is as if nothing worthy is happening around that would motivate me to express.
I have a lengthy list of blogs that i searched and found interesting, but even those are not being updated often. It all started (searching blogs) when i came across an article about blogs and in particular, about a an Indian blog that receives most number of hits. That is how i found eM. After that it was just checking out her blogger list and then the blogger list of the blogger in eM's blogger list and so on. Hmm how about writing what i think about each blogger in my list, that would be good. Anyway, thanks eM.
OK, getting back to the point which is "Nothing", I have been in this state of nothingness for some time and i desperately wanted to get out of it and that is the reason why I started writing this one.
I read somewhere, something along the lines of "Happy people seldom achieve anything great". How true!! If somebody is content with themselves and everything happening around, they would not put any efforts towards anything. I wouldn't.
That made me think if i was happy and maybe that was the reason "Nothing" is provoking any thoughts or feelings or ideas. If that is so, then i don't want to be happy, i would be very unhappy to be happy.
I have a lengthy list of blogs that i searched and found interesting, but even those are not being updated often. It all started (searching blogs) when i came across an article about blogs and in particular, about a an Indian blog that receives most number of hits. That is how i found eM. After that it was just checking out her blogger list and then the blogger list of the blogger in eM's blogger list and so on. Hmm how about writing what i think about each blogger in my list, that would be good. Anyway, thanks eM.
OK, getting back to the point which is "Nothing", I have been in this state of nothingness for some time and i desperately wanted to get out of it and that is the reason why I started writing this one.
I read somewhere, something along the lines of "Happy people seldom achieve anything great". How true!! If somebody is content with themselves and everything happening around, they would not put any efforts towards anything. I wouldn't.
That made me think if i was happy and maybe that was the reason "Nothing" is provoking any thoughts or feelings or ideas. If that is so, then i don't want to be happy, i would be very unhappy to be happy.
manay years ago, at a get together, someone said they dont enjoy listening to ghazals anymore to that a friend of our said, you dont have to fail in love to understnad the depth of a failed lovers song. i thought how true....
ReplyDeletewhile reading ur blog, i remembered that. Sometimes deep waters are still and almost seem like there is nothing there. Wha tyou have to say is so much that u dont know where to begin, that's why the nothingness and the stillness....
time to explore yourself
L
Dear anonymous,
ReplyDeleteYou seem to know a lot more about me than myself, which i can't argue and why the heck are you commenting as anonymous?
So you say that i am in deep waters, hmmmm